When I used to do stand up, I would tell myself 3 things right before I went on stage:
1. Be yourself
2. Have fun
3. It’s important
And I am trying to tell myself these same 3 rules at the start of every day.
I did not sleep well last night. One of the darlings came into bed with me at around 2. She’s nearly as big as an adult so she woke me. We have no air conditioning. It was hot. I tossed and turned. Then I moved to my daughter’s now-empty bed. I’d heard an antidote to insomnia is changing rooms.
As I walked in the hall, I heard the television was still on. My husband stays up way too late into the night, sometimes until 3 or 4. Then of course he falls asleep in the early evening hours when you’re talking to him (blame the Parkinson’s). Hearing the television just made me feel all sad and jumbled — my life, my restless night, my work. And I couldn’t wait until morning so I could dump all my thoughts, worries, dreams, into my journal.
1. Be yourself. Because there is a unique point of view based on a unique life’s journey. And for whatever reason, this is my journey. This is mine.
2. Have fun. Because I seriously believe that we are put on this earth to give and experience joy. The goal in life is to be happy, joyous, and free.
3. It’s important. Because I can easily dismiss my point of view, or expect that I am less than. But what I have to say is important.
I did fall asleep in my daughter’s bed and woke to write all this in my journal.