I love writing.
Revising? Editing? Not so much.
I love the act of creating. When I was on my sabbatical, writing a blog post a day, I was in heaven. Always new. Always thinking. Always up for another cup of coffee. Hit the Post button. I’m done. I wrote it. I’m brilliant in the very short form. The long form. Ugh.
Last November, I wrote a novel in a month. NaNoWriMo. Na=National, No=Novel, Wri=Writing, Mo=You get the idea.
I wish that I had as much gusto for editing the book these last 10 months as I had for writing the book in that one month.
So it is with any big achievement.
Everyone’s up for a wedding, but who is up for the day-to-day of marriage? Helping the newlyweds redecorate or navigate their finances? Nah! Everyone loves to celebrate the baby’s birth, but the grueling day in and day out of diaper changing? Not for the faint of heart. No big balloon bouquets for the daily slog. How about graduation? Heck, I’d love to send the graduate a card with a few bucks tucked inside! But help her in the days, weeks, months ahead as she’s looking for a job? Not really feeling it.
I honestly never felt so purposeful as I felt writing my novel last November. Never felt so accomplished as when I finished it. I made myself cry (but if you know me, well, crying’s my forte.)
Loved the challenge of reaching 75K (or was it 50K? How soon I forget) of NaNoWriMo. I loved the support, encouragement of my cyberfriends and my real family.
Charlotte quieted the other two, “Shhhhh, Quit fighting. Mom’s writing.”
Hayden bragged about me at an all school assembly.
Catherine brought me a cup of tea, then backed away like a geisha girl.
But the month was over. Weeks turned into months. It’s almost November — time to start a new novel. How can I start another baby when I haven’t completely finished the last?
I opened the humongous file of the 2009 NaNoWriMo winner, stared at the screen. My fingers lay dormant.
After a while, “What are you doing, Mom?” My head was on the keyboard.
“Thinking about my novel,” I said.
“I thought you wrote that book already, Mom,” Char said.
“I did. But now I have to rewrite it,” I said. Honestly, I have to — not only rewrite and edit it, but I have to start to read it. I can’t even remember my main character’s name. I wrote those 175 pages in November as if in a trance.
Hayden walks by carrying a plate of Bagel Bites. “Your book? Mom, when is your book coming out? I should make an announcement at school again,” Hayden nodded.
“Oh, it’s not done.”
I don’t know. Maybe there’s someone somewhere who actually spews out words and doesn’t have to rewrite them. I wish that was me. But that ain’t me — Gotta rewrite this part! Got to, rather — That isn’t me.
I need to brew and stew and revisit. Ah, maybe that’s how I can get back to the novel. See it as a little visit to a world I once knew and loved and forgot. Like remembering the high of a wedding, a birth or a graduation. Rest on achievement represented by that one big day, but don’t let the one big day stop me from really living the one big life. ‘Cause life is an accumulation of days, some big, some small, mostly average. That’s what writing and editing is – the daily grind, no big who-ha! And I’d rather party, but I’ve got to slog.
I am challenging myself to read my 2009 NaNoWriMo novel and edit and revise for 10 minutes every day until November when I begin a new novel. I will try to periodically check in here and post progress. That seems to have been a successful way to get myself to start running; the semi-public act of blogging about running has made me a more consistent runner. http://runningaground.wordpress.com/
Maybe the semi-public act of writing about novel writing will make me actually work on my novel. If you think this is true, see an earlier blog post where I have considered doing this in April. http://gettingmyessayspublished.wordpress.com/2010/02/27/nanoedmo/ It’s just easier (more fun!) to write than edit.
3 thoughts on “NaNoWriMo Again”
Can I make a suggestion? (you can ignore it if you want)
I did the same thing last November. Wrote a ‘book’, pantsed it (wrote it by the seat of my pants) and while I technically finished it, the editing/revising process was painful. Mostly because I couldn’t make it ‘sound’ like I wanted a story to sound.
Then in Feb I learned all about story structure (and despite what people say, it’s probably the most important part of the story) from Larry Brooks at http://www.storyfix.com.
I’ve since trashed that #NaNoWriMo effort as unfixable. I’ve plotted the structure, and am about 75% through a new novel. When the first draft is finished I’ll start plotting my NaNoWriMo for this year, then go back to editing and revising this one.
The book I wrote last November wasn’t completely trashed – half of the secondary characters and one of the main characters have shown up in this book as secondary characters, with their back story firmly created in my mind.
Good luck with the writing. I can say that while I’m a freshman at this book writing thing, the ease at which words hit the page after outlining is well worth the effort. I’m hitting 3k words a day, easy.
Tony, thanks for the reply. You are right on. I will follow your suggestion! I feel I just need consistency. I enjoy blogging so much more than novel writing.