Yesterday the weirdest thing happened. I had a lot to do, so I napped. I never nap. I only napped when I was pregnant.
I felt guilty for napping. Guilt is my fall-back feeling for doing anything that does not improve the house, help my husband or my kids, earn money.
After all, I had to:
- Clean the house. (The cleaning lady couldn’t come due to the impending storm.)
- Write a proposal for the Players Club about a January blogging event.
- Say yes! to a request to lead a social media workshop in April 2013 at Religion Communicators Council gathering in Indianapolis.
- Begin a magazine writing assignment.
- Watch the president’s acceptance speech. (Couldn’t stay up on election night to wait for Romney’s concession!)
- Help my husband with bill-paying.
So I napped. I slept for two and a half hours. I woke up groggy, confused. I had dreamt I was at a racetrack with my son and I was drinking champagne. It was a warm afternoon and I was enjoying our shady spot. I wanted to stay asleep.
The kids come home from school, dropping their backpacks by the front door, noisy and hungry for a snack or attention.
But I couldn’t help them. I couldn’t remember who they were, who I was, or where I was. It took me half an hour to feel right. That’s why I never nap. It’s discombobulating.
I know I’m tired because I’ve been waking early to get the kids up to their bus and get to my 7:30 am guided meditation class.
In meditation yesterday morning, a long-haired dude sitting next to me was falling on my shoulder, snoring away. It threw me off my meditation game.
My nap threw me off too. Since it snowed last night, I’m wondering if maybe I was just getting ready for a long winter’s nap.